We have been married 200 days today! That's almost 7 months. It is really a blessing...to wake up next to my best friend! It hasn't all been easy. I mean come on... its a guy and girl learning to live in the same house together! If someone tells you that it was ALL easy...don't believe them. We live differently, we think differently, and we do life differently. But God, ( I Love that phrase) put us together and as each day goes by that fact becomes more obvious. Our Love grows deeper and in that my understanding... or my understanding of my lack of understanding... of how much God Loves us grows.
I want to put the last 7 months into words but I don't think its possible. Some of the feelings have been so new...and I think can only be felt in a marriage...that part of getting used to marriage has been learning how to feel married. The idea of being a team... learning how to be a team...to feel like a team...it is a new thing! Even though I had thought about marriage...seriously....since college. Before that it was all roses and sweet kisses! In college I started to learn that marriage was more than that. I had watched my parents my whole life and realized in college how special it was that my parents were still married. I also realized that they had been teaching us by being a good example of marriage. In college I started to learn what God said about marriage. I learned about not awakening Love before its time. That was a hard one to swallow....because I wanted so much to be in Love. I thought I had found Love a few times...but deep down it just didn't click.
After watching friend after friend after friend get married...and being a bridesmaid in wedding after wedding....I started to wonder about if I would get married. I had to really pray and just trust God. I knew He had said I would get married one day...so I just trusted that. I didn't "put myself out there"... I quit trying to FIND him... I just trusted that he would come in my life when God wanted it to happen. Once I decided to do that... instead of spending all my time looking for the "right one" ...God was able to make me into the "right one" for my husband. When we finally met...it was like people always say (and I would roll my eyes at them too...) "you just know. It had only been 2 weeks and I was thinking about falling in Love with him. Which for me...was a huge deal. I had all these "rules" and well... he broke all my rules! I wanted to be friends with someone a year, date a year, and then engaged a year. Now I will admit the older I got the less likely that became....but to meet, date, get engaged in 11 months and married 6 months later...I didn't see that coming! :D
But I am so glad it did. :)
